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[19 Jan 2008|11:32pm] |
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So tomorrow marks the year anniversary for my and my lover.
Which is awesome
but this year will definitly be different
I lost my best friend because I have a big mouth...
not to mention havent even tried to tell her I'm sorry...I know, its a genious move on my part.
So as I sit here and read all of the other posts on this online journal...I realize how much I havtne really changed. For Instance:
yelling while drunk
OOr making an ass out of myself
BUT...Things have also changed:
I have been much better with all of that since I left Northbridge and came back to school...aand actually wake up in the morning....get homework done BEFORE the due date...AND go to the gym. Pure insanity...
Hopefully
Tomorrow will be fun
And definitly romantic
OOh yeah...Ive also learned I am the biggest cliche when it comes to relationships...and I'm lovin' it :)
Peace Out Girl Scouts
--Kim--
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| Everything comes to an end |
[05 May 2007|05:56pm] |
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The semesters almost over...only 4 days left and 4 finals to be taken. Its crazy really becuase I really never thought about my first year as a college student...and I never thought I would actually see the day that the first whole year ended. Pessimism pretty much takes it all with this semester. Getting drunk, parties, stupid fights, all nighters for papers, and STRESS are the few examples of what my life has become. Embarassment is a big thing too. Ya know, you would think that after making an ass out of myself over and over again would teach me something...but I guess its true...I am an O'Hara. haha.
I'm pretty exited about this summer though, even though I'm gonna miss BJ more than anything, I get to rekindle my past, and finally get the closure that I've needed since I was 14. Which is pretty cool considering every time I get drunk...I yell at people about my past...which gets wicked funny because I usually start talking in another language and walking away in the middle of it. Complete sentences are NOT and option when I'm drinking, youre pretty lucky if you get the point of anything I say. I like that though, it just means no one knows anything at all...muhahaha.
BUUUUT pretty much pissed about finals week. I HATE TESTS. I HATE FINALS. AND I DONT WANNA STAY UP ALL NIGHT LEARNING ABOUT NEANDERTALS AND HAIRY OLD PEOPLE!!! Oh well, I'm paying for it, so I mind as well get it done haha.
Final Thought:
I love BJ, I love to party, and I love to get naked and pee on your floors. Watch yourself America...or your house might smell like pee. ;)
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| So confused... |
[11 Apr 2007|09:59pm] |
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I can't deal with anything anymore. Everything has officially crashed around me except for my relationship...which is probably going to fail once I figure this out. My family is insane...my body is fucked up...and no one is hearing me out on things. I usually wouldnt post this on LJ..buuuut..I really dont care anymore.
PLUS, the only other guy in my life that I loved, who completly fucked me over by the way, has just asked me back, but I'm in an incredible relationship as it is. Even though it's foolish to even think twice about it, the whole situation makes me think "what if?". It almost brings some security back, brings back a time of everything being awesome. And I miss that. And I know it's going to take years to get that back.
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[19 Feb 2007|10:21pm] |
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I'm wicked home sick. And for which place, I don't even know anymore, I just wanna go some where familiar, and with people I'm actually close too. Hopefully I'll go somewhere soon.
LYLAS.
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| Classes up the ass! |
[24 Jan 2007|11:40am] |
So I got my classes yesterday after being ignored by my advisor for...hmm..about a month. Then, I filled out some financila aid shit. I had an awesome weekend of beer pong and well...you uessed it...Beer! And then, well, I got a boyfriend, who is awesome. Got some strange news from my ex...but its all good. And well, I pretty much cant wait until the weekend...80's parties bitches!!!!!!
Catch ya laters...I have to go to my next class.
People I miss like woah...PHOEBE! and NIKKI and Becky and Steve and Ashley and lots of others but they get recognition first. Sorry guys! <3
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| Finals week |
[12 Dec 2006|06:01am] |
The week of hell for all college students has been placed upon us. Finals week. Be prepared for sleep depravation and extra acne with the permenant overdose of caffine. Good luck to you all because well...I am so gonna get my ass kicked for my grades from this semester. Ew. For you Finals...I spit on you. Bitches.
~The one and only
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[30 Nov 2006|05:00am] |
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Happy thirsty thurday everybody! Hope it is drunktacular...cause I may be sober...so you must drink enough for 2 people. K thanks bye.
As Always
Kim
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[29 Nov 2006|03:09pm] |
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Well, only a few weeks left of my first semester and this is insane! I miss Northbridge...and I really never thought I would be willing to admit this to this extreme. I just wanna hang out with Phoebe and honk at mailboxes and be completly stupid and just not care about anything around me. Don't get me wrong, I don't care what people think of me until they hate me. Thats just something I like to avoid because honestly, hate is so pathetic. Life is hella fucking short and to remebered as some insignificant hated bitch is absolutly on my Not To Do List.
Yeah, One thing I like to do now is to every optimistlc thing, add on a pesimistic side. Theres the To Do List and the Not To Do List, theres Shopping and then theres Not Shopping AKA: Cleptos. So many more, just no care to share. LoL.
OMFG I wanna see PHOEBE. Grrrr. But the next vacation is gonna be a new head trip everyday and night. I havent been back there since fucking August or July..and the night before I left I followed someone in there car and delt with the cops, but then ofcourse, got high. Then before I can even get there I have to go to West Chester which is so hard at this point. Steve will hopefully be out of rehab by the time I get out and he's someone it's getting hard to talk to. Ashley's going through a hard time with who he is and eveyone else is so fucking selfish. Then I go to my Popops house for Christmas day and my momom just died. Thats goning to be too hard to explain. And then my aunt...I don't know what she thinks of my anymore and I know she doesn't want me around. That was my home at one point in time, and now theres nothing left of me there exept forgotten memories and shit I left cause it wouldn't fit in my bags. After that, I go to MA. And then I deal with everything there. Then I come back here. To Clarion. Whats going to be here when I get back...NOTHING Everyone I really know is leaving. And then theres a whole handful of guys that I just can't do anything about. I don't want to hurt them but they're all fucking with my head. And they all heard my explinations or why I wanna be single and they just don't care what I have to say. Pretty much they just wanna tapp it ad run. But it's nothing new. This has been my life since I was young. But now it's finally taking it's toll.
aksdufhyencmxd
Thats pretty much whats going on. I'm scared. End of story.
Byez.
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| Me, myself, and I |
[19 Nov 2006|06:16pm] |
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So now it's finally happend. The people I care about the most are falling harder than ever before an there is nothing I can do about it. My brother has almost nothing left in his life while Steve contines to break himself down. I wish I could help them but they're too far away. Steve is acting like rehab will solve everything for him...but it sounds good right? One trip to rehab and you're fixed...right? No one is that stupid. I want to tell him that his creis for help are being heard, but that I don't know how to help. I did everything for that kid, and to know that he has taken it all away and turned into a selfish kiniving bastard hurts more than I ever thought it could. I also know that it's hurting other people a lot too, but what I want everyone to know is what he's done to me. He broke me down and fucked up my college life when he knew he was the only person I ever loved. To know that he wouldn't care if I died today hurts too. The second we broke up he truned into this horrible person. I can't help but blame myself for what he's going through. It is my fault. It's my fault for my brother too. And for everyone else that I introduced into the drug world...even if it was just a little bit a long time ago. This really is one of the worst times in my life...but no one is there to really talk. I don't know what to do anymore. I never thought it could be this bad.
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[12 Apr 2006|04:58pm] |
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I went to school today..IN NORTHBRIDGE
Met sex kitten
hung out with EVERYONE
and talked to machelle!
haha
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| chem class! |
[13 Jun 2005|08:23am] |
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im in chem class right now...it really sucks, Heathers gone so now i have no one to talk to, and everyone around me is either a teacher suck up or a giggling idiot! not to mention i think i have a cold..IN THE SUMMER! But ofcourse...why wouldnt I...LoL. i gues ts time to be optimistic and stop complaining now..haha okie, well, this is wicked boreing..yeeeeeeeaaaaaaaahhhhhhh...so umm.. k bye
Kim
ps THREE DAYS LEFT OF SCHOOL!!
:) :) :) :)
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| SATs!!! |
[02 Jun 2005|08:06pm] |
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WOOHOO SATs on staurday, but then i also have relay for life...but im not sure if i wanna go yet..maybe...Anywho, today was preschool graduation, and yesterday all of the seniors left! :( I'm gonna miss a lot of them but some I can live without, you can place the names in ther if you'd like..lol. Then theres Kelly. She got in trouble at home and refused to go back for like, a week or so. I didnt find this out until about last friday, and she had already been missing for a week when I called her mom without knowing. After about one other call, I found her and tried to put some sense into her about going home. It's obvious she wasnt actually kicked out of her house, (what she originally thought,) but her mom was devestated about the whole incident when I talked to her. But, hopefully she'll go home soon, still love her if she'd realize what she's doing to herself. The thing i have to remember is that its not my life, and theres nothing I can do exept try to help her out for know. Well, Emily and Sarah want the computer so i have to go...TTYL
Kim
P.S. HAPPY 13th BIRTHDAY DAN!! LoL not that you read this, hopefully
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| SCHOOLS ALMOST OOOOOOT |
[15 May 2005|07:32pm] |
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4 weeks till im a senior in high school thank mother theressa! and yes, i got the job at eckerd, but i no longer want to work there, seing aws how it SUCKS! And then to add on to my aggrivation, a teacher took off with my phone on FRIDAY, and NEVER GAVE IT BACK! No i have too look all over the fucking school tomorrow and try to find it. That teacher...aka:the biggest ass in the history of East High school! ut so far i need to find a date for prom, seeing how its on SATURDAY next weekend...oh jeez! It's not that I'm really exited or anything, but everyone around me is so hyped, and I can't figure out why I cant get like that, maybe it's because its a school dance...i.e. something i can't stand. But I have other oppointments to attend to so I shall talk to everyone at a later time or the day...but probably not seeing how I'm never on the computer..LoL. JK
Love Always
Kim
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Today has been a very long day. I started out I had a horrible time in chem, but when is that any different? LoL Then I had to stand up for this girl in child development. every stupid freshman girl...and Ryan...had an idea that a girl threatened the class...when she definitely didn't, and then noone will talk to her exept Naomi and me. Pretty much, I'm fucking sick of naive people. Then, tonight, i went to Lisa's 18th b-day party, but not very many people showed up. Then, just to make matters worse, some stupid freshamn girl along with her stupid sophomore friend took one of Lisa's flyers and wrote..."BYOB," and "Open House" so through the night, people were showing up trying to find a party. It's not right.I understand why people do it, but do they EVER fucking think of other people? I just hope Lisa's ok, no one should have to deal with any of this kinda of shit. I cant stand any of this, its so over-the-top-drama. No one deserves it. But I'm pretty much tired
AND, i have a job!!!!!!!! at Eckerd!!!!!!
YAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAY
Phoebe...call me ASAP!
LOVE
Me
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| Yeah, Im Alive! |
[17 Apr 2005|07:21pm] |
hey everyone....SORRY I havent been on here forever and a day, the computers been really hard to get a hold of!
A lot has happend since my last entry, but for the most part, its all still drama. Yes, I pretty much still hate chincs but not quite as drastic, and Ryan is still an ass, and ofcourse Andrew STILL has my CD.LoL. For the most part, I've been hanging out with Cait and going to shows.
On another point, summer is almost here...I CANT FUCKING WAIT! Along with prom though, wich im not sure if I really wanna go. If you look at it in the right way though, everyone else is paying for me to look good, so I can't really go wrong. LoL. Oh yeah, and I had an interview on friday afternoon after school at Eckerd,(which is just like a CVS) so cross your fingers for me cuz I NEED that job!!!! Allrighty then, I'll start updateing more often!
LOVE YOU ALL
Kim
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| Hilo! |
[24 Nov 2004|03:00pm] |
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Im at Macks house right now. I found out tht im completly racists against Chincs! DAMN THEM ALL TO HEEEEEEELL. Anywho, ive been groped by Phoebe! YAY. LOL. Cait, I'll mentally twitch with you, so dont worry about it...LoL...and im allowed to go to the String Cheese Concert if we get the info by friday, WOOT WOOT! or we could just hang out at Fennario's. yay
Well im gonna go be groped now, MUHAHAHAHA....byes! and now Macks dyeing..and Spaghetio's are GOOOOOOOOOD. LOVE ALWAYS
KIMKIMKIMKIMKIMKIMKIMKIM!
and PHOEBE
and OSCAR or Gefo
and MACK
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Going home on Friday! AHHHHH! its gonna be insane, but yeah, YAY. Theres new drama though, everything with Andrew is over, which really isnt all that bad of a thing, and then he overdosed on his anti-depressants the other night. Even if theres no emotional connection, that still freaks me out. He's fine now, just has a stomach ache, but yeah.
Then, thats about it, i outlined the whole week with Steph, but i cant read much of it, so thats gonna be on here eventually, once i have time to try to read it. LoL, but yeah, im gonna go...4 DAYS TILL I GET HOME! YAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAY!!!!!!!!!
Love always
who it always is damn!
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| STEPH'S GONNA WIN |
[10 Nov 2004|08:21pm] |
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alot happend over the weekend, but unfortunatly, i dont have enough time to type it down. But in recent knews...Things with andrew are still the same as the were the first time we were going out..if thats what this is...it would be great to know what's going on. but yeah, then Keiths not doing very well up at home, and it feels like lifes just going around in some little circle. playing back history as i fuck up with andrew, and watch my brother sink back down. but yeah....
On another more happy note...some glorious inside jokes
** Molly "its like, in another language!"....Steph "No, it's just backwards!"
** Molly's etnicity change
** Kiddnapping Molly
** JoJo "We're not drama girls, are we?"
** Driving directly over a median.
Now i really have to go, but talk to ya'll later! BYEZ!
KimKim
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[03 Nov 2004|04:40pm] |
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hey hey everyoooooooooooooooooooone. if theres anything mispelled...im oober sorry, its just kinda difficult to type on here. arrrrrrrrrrrgh. its a lab top, my aunti got a new one. YaY but anywho,
Monday, it was kinda interesting, i leaked over in school...AGAIN....but this time no Phoebe to help with the whole situation by NOT giving me her sweat shirt...LOL...JK, i understand why you didnt, but you see this time, i had my own sweatshirt, SO HA. JK...LOVE YA GIRL.And i came to the conclusion that one of my ovaries had burst..it was so fucking heavy! not to put any unwanted imagery into your heads. LoL.... But then I went to Andrews, and we had some fun of our own, i think i really REALLY like him again....a lot though, and as of right now i dont know if either of us can handle it. He was just kicked out of his house by his DICKHEAD father, and yeah...he'supposed to move to his brothers house...:(. hopefully he's happier with whatever happens, cuz in reality thats all that matters.
Then yesterday was election day....And guess who won!!!! FUCKING ESKOMO GUY WITH THE WICKED BIG LEFT EAR!!! George Bush....personally i dont like either of the two...NADOR ALL THE WAY BABY! haha...anywho, i just kinda slept all day, and that was it.
Today was rather boreing, had a Geometry test, thought my brain had exploded. LOL..jk...and that was just about the biggest thing that happend. BUt as of right now..i havent talked to Andrew all day, and kinda hesitante to call his house, not knowing if his fathers gonna answer or not...*Eek!* Well, im gonna go have a lesbian afair with Phoebe, so byez!!!!!
KimKim
LOVE YOU PHOEBE....KELLY...AND ANDREW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
im just full of love! LoL
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Sorry to whomever reads this that ist taken me so long to write an entry. Im not really allowed on the com much any more. But now its Halloween, and i cant go out. THIS SUCKS.
Well, to catch up:
Two weekends ago, on Sat. it was PSATS. THAT WAS HORRIBLE. BUt then,later that day i went to the Franklin institute in Phili with the whole lot of them.It was fun. On Sunday Sandra and me went to Phili for the annual Aids walk. That was crazy. We cought the bus at 7:30 at the school with a lot of the Young life kids, and then trailed away from them for a while, and ended up in China town. It was awsome. Thats now known as "The Day". HaHa.
Last weekend i went to Pittsburg to visit my cousin Doug in college. Aunt Tish, Kevin and I went together on fri...i got to miss school. YAY LoL. We went to the college foot ball game, and waled around, it was indeed fun. Kevin and me pranked Ryan's cell, and told him to catch his fridge. HAHA, immature but FUN. Then i told Kevin that any little 11 year old that makes out with people should be beaten with metal chairs. HAHA. and yeah, haha. We stayed in a Hilton hotel with all the richies, it was fun to walk around in pj;s and socks, HEHE
Then this weekend, its HALLOWEEN! My mommy and Keith came down for a bit. It was cool. WOOT, but they left today, and im not allowed to go out tonight. Not sure why, but thats ok, just put up with it for a while. Friday night Keith and i went out to eat at COSI's and then went to the movies with Andrew Ohil and Jamie...(andrews brother) We saw...SAW. IT WAS SO...psycologocal. it was awsome! Then last night it was a big party here with all the O'Hara's , and that was cool. Keith, Molly and I went to the mall for a bit, while getting lost on the way. I knew the directions, but no one listend to me! ARRGH! hahahahaha. We also ate a lot of chips while everyone was asleep. BUT HEY...it was cool.LOL.
Oh yeah, and i guess one of the really big things right now is im back with Andrew. He's changed a lot, so we'll see what happens. IM OUT! LOVE YAS
KimKim
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